I want to go to sleep and not wake up, but I don’t want to die. I want to eat like a normal person eats, but I need to see my bones or I will hate myself even more and I might cut out my heart or take every pill that was ever made
I feel greedy and possessive cause all I can think about is calling you mine.
I can play music at a reasonable level.
I just don’t want to.
I haven’t been on much lately. I’ve been busy with going back to school and hanging out with a few of my friends while they are still here. It’s been a month since Shawn left and it’s been a weird mix of emotions and I don’t know who to talk to about how I feel or what’s going on in my head.
Almost 20 days since he’s left and I still feel like I’m falling apart and there’s a huge part of me that is missing…
please don’t wish for a zombie apocalypse I’m fat and my cardio sucks